I thought that I would
share my 3 stressors as an assignment and maybe a healing vent session for
myself. Stress can be a contributor to high blood pressure, digestive issues, depression
and anxiety and even migraines. Although stress is an unavoidable part of life,
it can have very bad effects on a person’s life as well. For me, I am a person
that picks up and carries the problems of everyone around me. I am the go to
person when you need a shoulder. I think it a good thing that so many of my
friends consider me as a source of support or good advice but once my own
stressors came into play it caused a huge amount of anxiety and depression.
My first source of stress
is school. Not in a bad way but because I feel like at my age, if I am making
the effort to return to school and try to balance work, marriage, a grown
child, and everything else that comes with home life, that I have to get the
best grades possible. This is not a just something to do for me, I really want
to do well. I don’t want a “C”; if it is possible I want that “A”. The bad part
is that I also feel that I don’t have 3 or 4 more years to do this so I will
sometime take on more than I should. To carry a full load at school and work
fulltime is a lot for me at times. People ask all the time why I take so many
classes my response is simply, “I want my dad to see me graduate”. I can’t take
for granted that he will be here forever.
My second source of stress
the need to find another job, lay-off is now my reality the rest is self-explanatory.
This adds on to the last stressor, family live. Being the “strong” one, having
all the answers, knowing what’s next all the time is hard when you can’t say
for sure what next for yourself. All I know is that failure is not an option
and to let my family down will not do. Does this become unbearable sometime?
Absolutely, and I’ve had very serious bouts of depression because of it. What
saves me is the very thing that gets me down, my family. I’m a survivor and that’s all to it!
